The Parenting Diaries

and that’s not being modest.

As a mom, I know what I can and cannot do. I know my limitations when it comes to my daughter, especially regarding her education. This I realized these past few days - I don’t have the capacity to teach Pristine at home. That being said, without snapping or getting edgy or giving up. Don’t get me wrong, she is a very well behaved child, picks up what it taught of her easily, getting really good grades in school and well-mannered.

I am appalled by myself. How can I ever take control of my patience? She’s just a child! Last weekend, we were learning how to tell the time. Seriously, I think she’s too early to learn how to read the clock but since the teacher is starting to teach them and she brought a homework with it, I had to help her learn. I love reading books to her, telling self-made stories or mimick anything funny but when it comes to serious learning, I suck, big time.

It is hard for me to repeat things more than three times without fuming up. It’s not her fault but entirely mine. My mother, listening in the background would snap at me saying, “You’re becoming like your father!”

My father had a short fuse when helping us with our lessons while we were in school. It was tough having him around from when I was learning how to do the multiplication table until I sought help for Algebra. I swore I’d never be a parent like him, yet I am fast becoming one.

But I am going to try harder. Think that Pristine is a well able student who’s learning and needs my help, needs an understanding mom and not a tyrant. I seriously need lots of hard work with regards to my patience. God help me.